neosapian6

so im starting a stream right now on here
www.hitbox.tv/neosapian6
if anyone wants to come by and watch, that would be nice. im keeping the mic muted because... well... my previous headset broke, so its now a webcam and... we all know how shitty webcams are, dont we?
but yeah, drop on by if you want, itll be on around the following schedule at times
12:00 AM - 9:00 PM (will close up near 8:30 PM mark and chat with audience)
thisll be all week, however... itll be when i feel i have the time during the day for it, which hopefully is often so make sure to do that one thing that makes it so you get an email whenever i start streaming!
thanks, and have fun!
~ Neo

i... i feel absolutely terrible... i... gah...
ive been keeping my depression hidden so well from everyone that im scared of how well ive done it... ive only recently sent an email to those i trust about my current state to see if itll help (awaiting reply) and... i just wanted to let you guys in on it i guess
this... happy smiling mask of mine... its cracking... and i cant fix it anymore... i dont want to fix it, i want it to shatter and be gone so i can get the help i need... i cant keep going on like this... this mask... its gotta go... and i have to stop hiding my emotions, bottling them up and hoping they leave...

mien god its been a while since ive been on here ._.
eh heh... havnet been drawing often (sorries ^.^ cause... school... Q_Q
though uhm... im actually quite shy and... well im starting to think of streaming on www.hitbox.tv/neosapian6 every so often... cause twitch is... bleh atm
so... yeah if you guys wanna check out what games i play just... head thar ._. and thats pretty much it...
also uhm, im unsure if anyone knows, but i have the high functioning autism known as asperger's syndrome... so go look it up if you wanna know more...
and thats about it, ill add some art once i get the chance... and if my scanner decides to stop being an ass >_>
so have fun and stay alive!
~Neo

im sorry its just... parental controls... school... all that crap...
BUT HEY! summer vacation is almost here and ..... *facedesks* i need som bloody ideas... somebody... ANYBODY just leave a comment on this and tell me an idea that you have that you want me to do so i actually have something to do other than slowly go insane :<

got so bored instead of refreshing deviantart ALL THE TIME *practically* i went onto tumblr and i saw a very interesting minecraft blog... thing....... .... idk what they are called, so i guess im making it just so i can... well...... you know.... have people ask me questions if they are curious in any way about me...
the link is right.... here? ---> neosapian6.tumblr.com/ there we are
so if you guys just curious or just want to talk, i'll add this site to my "daily web check up", might want to hurry cause its now.... 11:42 PM and i asked if i could sketch something for a wigglywolf on here i believe on the tumblr xD so..... yeah
i guess good night to you, good morning, whatever bloody time you feel like reading this xD and have a nice time with life...